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Enoch ([personal profile] warriorscribe) wrote in [community profile] snowblindrpg2017-07-07 03:14 pm

[network] @Enoch; video; Day 257 [open] [cw: death talk, probably; suicidal ideation]

[The video opens on a plastic shopping bag, full to straining with rations and bottles of water, an entire week's worth crammed into one little bag, swaying on his arm as he walks. He sounds...well, scared. He's trying to play it off as angry, but it isn't working.]

Well, I suppose I ought to thank you for not leaving me with nothing...

[And the camera comes back up to his face, half-covered in his pastel yellow blanket-scarf and shadowed by the hoods of his cloak and raincoat. His eyes, at least, are frightened and pained.]

But really, Eve, must you use those machines to control my actions? It's entirely too much like being possessed and you surely know I have been. [A sigh, heavy and wavering.] Please, please, if you're going to deny me this, please tell me you revived Beckett, too.

Beckett... [his voice goes soft and he slows, coming to a stop for a few seconds in the snow. His head hangs and for a moment his face is entirely obscured from view. He leans on a building - the house with hot water - but does not go in.] ...Please don't be gone forever. Please let us meet again. I don't want it to be the same as it was with Clayton, I want to see you again!

I'm sorry, I couldn't save you. I tried, I tried, but I couldn't-... [his voice breaks and he keeps moving. He's heading for the school, but that won't be visible for some time yet. For now, the surroundings become the empty field around it.]

Brian, I'm sorry. Angel, Rhys, you too, forgive me. You love him too and I failed him. [His voice hitches again, but he's exerting himself too much to actually stop and cry.]

Right, I'm-...recording for everyone, I-... I'm sorry, I'm alive. I can't seem to control what I say or write but I'm alive. And I don't know yet that it's worth it that I am.

[That last bit, under his breath, might have been lost on the wind to those not paying close attention. He continues his walk towards the school, only silent in the effort of moving forward. It is occasionally punctuated by complaints about the cold and the way the plastic bag's handles bite into his arm even through his coat's sleeve, when he pauses for even a moment.]

((ooc: Because Enoch lacks any sort of communication filter, he may comment on text posts running concurrently with audio/video posts, including inbox and filtered posts. Let me know if you do NOT want him bringing up any other threads or commenting on yours in others!))
thewarningafter: (griefbeard | unease | staying calm)

[personal profile] thewarningafter 2017-08-02 09:00 pm (UTC)(link)
That's not nothing...but you're carrying around bottles for urine. It's weird. You're being weird.
thewarningafter: (griefbeard | neutral | such scruff)

[personal profile] thewarningafter 2017-08-09 08:14 pm (UTC)(link)
I get that. That part's kind of obvious, actually.

You're not going to...I mean, you said you didn't have any spare bottles. Maybe...don't this time?
thewarningafter: (griefbeard | manpain | tablet)

[personal profile] thewarningafter 2017-08-14 04:36 pm (UTC)(link)
It doesn't matter, it's just that you came on the network and told me all about how you pee in bottles and stick them in your clothes. Honestly, the part where you told me is probably the weirdest part. I get that you're having the same problem I am, but by extension you've got to get that I'm having the same problem you are. You're just going to get my opinion whether either of us wants it or not.
thewarningafter: (griefbeard | unease | that tea)

[personal profile] thewarningafter 2017-08-15 04:18 am (UTC)(link)
I'd say it's not as bad as being unable to recognize anyone for a week -- twice -- but I've already proven that wrong.
thewarningafter: (goatee | snark | well yeah)

[personal profile] thewarningafter 2017-08-16 05:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, like that, except I forgot everyone's names, too. Not my own, though. That would have been...worse. I mostly got away with pretending I knew what was going on.
thewarningafter: (griefbeard | unease | no money)

[personal profile] thewarningafter 2017-08-18 01:17 am (UTC)(link)
Yep, same as it'll be a relief not to spill my guts to everyone who so much as looks at me. Or doesn't look at me. Do you know how many dead people I've talked to today? Because it was a lot.
thewarningafter: (griefbeard | skeptical | Hamir tho)

[personal profile] thewarningafter 2017-08-21 03:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Be nice if they'd show their appreciation. Let me know they're listening.
thewarningafter: (griefbeard | action | book)

[personal profile] thewarningafter 2017-08-24 09:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Right kinds of people talking to them, right kinds of ghosts there to respond? These guys were...I don't think this is where they died. Or where they lived. Andromeda answers people who talk to her in her own house, right?
thewarningafter: (griefbeard | skeptical | Hamir tho)

[personal profile] thewarningafter 2017-08-25 01:46 pm (UTC)(link)
Possessed -- I missed all of that. Looked back at some of it, on the network. That was...something. Do we know what precipitated that? Whether we can get her to do it again? Probably a bad idea but I'd still do it.
thewarningafter: (goatee | snark | well yeah)

[personal profile] thewarningafter 2017-08-30 05:32 am (UTC)(link)
I'll look it up. Or just go to her house and ask her nicely. You think she'd possess me if I asked nicely? Hell of a walk, though. Guess it's not that much further than I've already got to go.
thewarningafter: (griefbeard | unease | no money)

[personal profile] thewarningafter 2017-09-03 06:58 pm (UTC)(link)
She wouldn't be the first. Or the last. What the hell, it's worth a try.