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Alphonse Elric ([personal profile] armoured) wrote in [community profile] snowblindrpg2017-09-03 09:36 am

[network] @LELRIC; day 276; morning [open]

[It's been a while since Al has addressed everyone, since he's helped the newcomers out as much as he should, since he's been himself. But he's here now, voice still young sounding but having lost the weariness he's had over the past few weeks. There's determination there again now, a fire that won't go out.]

I owe an apology... actually, I owe a lot.

There are people that I hurt when I wasn't myself, people that I scared, and I'm sorry. I should have said that earlier but-- but I was scared, I didn't want to see what I'd done, and I thought it was best if I just left you all alone. I understand that some of you might not want to see me again, or talk to me, or trust me; that's okay. I'll let you come to me, or not, it's your choice.

There are also people who tried to comfort me and tell me that it wasn't my fault, and I turned my back on them and ran away. I'm sorry, you were right. It wasn't my fault, just like it wasn't the fault of anyone else here, and I only realised that because of some things two people said to me. Dr. Watson told me that I'm not special, that I shouldn't have thought I could fight it if everyone else couldn't, and he was right. None of us are exempt from this, and we need to stop behaving like when it's us, when it's personal, then it's different. And the Cat told me that he knew it wasn't me, because he knew I did everything with my whole heart so if I'd been fighting it, then I'd been fighting with my whole heart too and that meant there was nothing else I could do.

He's right.

And I'm still going to put my whole heart into fighting this, and I'm not going to break, I'm just not. I've lost too many people who would be so angry with me for giving up, I don't want all of that loss and all of this pain to be for nothing. So I'm still here to help if anyone needs me, and I'll still try to protect everyone if I can. And I hope... I hope you'll all do the same.

Uh-- that's it.
cosmicwords: (Rats live on no evil star)

@user; voice

[personal profile] cosmicwords 2017-09-03 03:34 pm (UTC)(link)
[chaos wants to reassure people as well but like before he feels words are wasted. There isn't much he can say that people don't already instinctively know.

But maybe he can offer a discussion, something that's been worrying him, that can help people vent their sorrow and anger towards something constructive.]


I wonder why this sort of phenomenon keeps happening...?

Is it the beast trapped beneath the ice, the spirits and memories still trapped within this place, our nanomachines, or something we haven't yet considered?
cosmicwords: (Si metrum non habet non est poema.)

[personal profile] cosmicwords 2017-09-03 03:45 pm (UTC)(link)
An eternal recurrence...

I think the idea has merit.

Memories don't belong to only one person, after all, they belong to entire groups.

But I wonder how it is those memories so easily take hold...

Is it absurd to wonder if our own nanomachines once belonged to the original residents of the town?
cosmicwords: (I miss holy hand grenades)

[personal profile] cosmicwords 2017-09-03 03:50 pm (UTC)(link)
It's a terrible thought but also maybe one that can give this world hope.

If the machines were theirs and we are living through their memories then maybe we are also carrying their biometric data. Maybe then, through us, this town can live again.
cosmicwords: (Waffle on the ceiling)

[personal profile] cosmicwords 2017-09-06 03:21 pm (UTC)(link)
That's what I mean. The town itself, not the individuals who lived here.

Like I said, memories don't belong to just one person.

There might be a way to load the data into one of the machines or even into Andromeda or Winter. Even if those people never come back, parts of them will be here. What they have done can inform the future.

And, maybe...

And maybe the town itself will one day again be able to host life again.
cosmicwords: (Earth will become a second Venus.)

[personal profile] cosmicwords 2017-09-06 09:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Mm...

It seems to be. But cycles can be broken.

I think that's why we're here; to heal the world and end the cycle.

All I am saying is this data we hold may be part of the key....

It could hold within it clues about what happened and what might be done to prevent it from happening again.

With those memories, the deaths of the original citizens don't have to ultimately be meaningless.

[A pause.]

Of course my assumptions about biometric data are based entirely on the way this world seems to warp people into being as close to human as possible. Almost as if hosts for the nanomachines are valuable. This warping even applies to those of us who could survive better if not human.

It's a flimsy line of reasoning, so I could be entirely wrong. I really don't know all that much about nanomachines, not even the ones from my own world.

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[personal profile] standing_waters 2017-09-03 04:22 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm glad you're feeling better.
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[personal profile] standing_waters 2017-09-06 12:23 pm (UTC)(link)
Its alright. I understand how you felt.

*He felt pretty similar. He was able to push through it and at least try to be helpful. But he hadn't been here nearly as long as Al.*
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[personal profile] standing_waters 2017-09-06 12:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Its easy to think that. Its just hard to feel it.
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[personal profile] standing_waters 2017-09-06 01:25 pm (UTC)(link)
I think we can. In time.

*Maybe a lifetime's worth but whatever.*

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[personal profile] thewarningafter 2017-09-04 12:56 am (UTC)(link)
I don't blame you. I never blamed you, or the others. I'm glad to hear you sounding like yourself again.
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[personal profile] thewarningafter 2017-09-08 03:59 am (UTC)(link)
It wasn't you. I knew that. I always knew that.

[He'd clung to it, more for himself than for Al at the time.]
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[personal profile] thewarningafter 2017-09-13 06:29 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, well, I try.

[Sometimes he wishes he weren't so strong. Sometimes he thinks it would be easier just to break, to give in -- but hell, he's never been able. Not indefinitely.]
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[personal profile] thewarningafter 2017-09-14 04:41 pm (UTC)(link)
Keep being you. Do that for me, will you?

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