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[network] @Enoch; video; Day 257 [open] [cw: death talk, probably; suicidal ideation]
[The video opens on a plastic shopping bag, full to straining with rations and bottles of water, an entire week's worth crammed into one little bag, swaying on his arm as he walks. He sounds...well, scared. He's trying to play it off as angry, but it isn't working.]
Well, I suppose I ought to thank you for not leaving me with nothing...
[And the camera comes back up to his face, half-covered in his pastel yellow blanket-scarf and shadowed by the hoods of his cloak and raincoat. His eyes, at least, are frightened and pained.]
But really, Eve, must you use those machines to control my actions? It's entirely too much like being possessed and you surely know I have been. [A sigh, heavy and wavering.] Please, please, if you're going to deny me this, please tell me you revived Beckett, too.
Beckett... [his voice goes soft and he slows, coming to a stop for a few seconds in the snow. His head hangs and for a moment his face is entirely obscured from view. He leans on a building - the house with hot water - but does not go in.] ...Please don't be gone forever. Please let us meet again. I don't want it to be the same as it was with Clayton, I want to see you again!
I'm sorry, I couldn't save you. I tried, I tried, but I couldn't-... [his voice breaks and he keeps moving. He's heading for the school, but that won't be visible for some time yet. For now, the surroundings become the empty field around it.]
Brian, I'm sorry. Angel, Rhys, you too, forgive me. You love him too and I failed him. [His voice hitches again, but he's exerting himself too much to actually stop and cry.]
Right, I'm-...recording for everyone, I-... I'm sorry, I'm alive. I can't seem to control what I say or write but I'm alive. And I don't know yet that it's worth it that I am.
[That last bit, under his breath, might have been lost on the wind to those not paying close attention. He continues his walk towards the school, only silent in the effort of moving forward. It is occasionally punctuated by complaints about the cold and the way the plastic bag's handles bite into his arm even through his coat's sleeve, when he pauses for even a moment.]
((ooc: Because Enoch lacks any sort of communication filter, he may comment on text posts running concurrently with audio/video posts, including inbox and filtered posts. Let me know if you do NOT want him bringing up any other threads or commenting on yours in others!))
Well, I suppose I ought to thank you for not leaving me with nothing...
[And the camera comes back up to his face, half-covered in his pastel yellow blanket-scarf and shadowed by the hoods of his cloak and raincoat. His eyes, at least, are frightened and pained.]
But really, Eve, must you use those machines to control my actions? It's entirely too much like being possessed and you surely know I have been. [A sigh, heavy and wavering.] Please, please, if you're going to deny me this, please tell me you revived Beckett, too.
Beckett... [his voice goes soft and he slows, coming to a stop for a few seconds in the snow. His head hangs and for a moment his face is entirely obscured from view. He leans on a building - the house with hot water - but does not go in.] ...Please don't be gone forever. Please let us meet again. I don't want it to be the same as it was with Clayton, I want to see you again!
I'm sorry, I couldn't save you. I tried, I tried, but I couldn't-... [his voice breaks and he keeps moving. He's heading for the school, but that won't be visible for some time yet. For now, the surroundings become the empty field around it.]
Brian, I'm sorry. Angel, Rhys, you too, forgive me. You love him too and I failed him. [His voice hitches again, but he's exerting himself too much to actually stop and cry.]
Right, I'm-...recording for everyone, I-... I'm sorry, I'm alive. I can't seem to control what I say or write but I'm alive. And I don't know yet that it's worth it that I am.
[That last bit, under his breath, might have been lost on the wind to those not paying close attention. He continues his walk towards the school, only silent in the effort of moving forward. It is occasionally punctuated by complaints about the cold and the way the plastic bag's handles bite into his arm even through his coat's sleeve, when he pauses for even a moment.]
((ooc: Because Enoch lacks any sort of communication filter, he may comment on text posts running concurrently with audio/video posts, including inbox and filtered posts. Let me know if you do NOT want him bringing up any other threads or commenting on yours in others!))
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It's not impossible to have some crossover between planes, but not like you're suggesting. Projecting an astral form visible from the material plane isn't that hard, and you could argue we're on two planes all the time since it's not like we stop having astral bodies while we're inhabiting the material versions.
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[That seems to be it. Except...]
...I wonder what the cloaks were for. Why was that all we properly saw?
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[He mulls that over.]
When we see the thing in the morgue -- when idiots use it to commit suicide and record the process -- Winter implied that what we all see in the videos is a result of how the person dying interpreted what they saw. The nanomachines operate on the same frequencies as the tablets and interfere with the feed. If anything, it's weirder that we all saw the same thing without being connected by video. It implies that it was real, on some level.
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[There could be further discussion of how they all saw those cloaked figures. There would have been if Enoch's mind was working as it should. But no, this was the first thing to come to mind and now that he's said it? It's honestly a question he needs answered.]
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I said I might do this - lucky you, Stephen
[He trails off, distinctly uncomfortable, and glances back over his shoulder.]
Oh, that was an idiotic mistake, why did I pass that house by!?
oh boy!
Where are you?
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Halfway to the school's shed and without enough time to visit the school proper, which puts the last available toilet out of my reach too!
[He groans in frustration.]
I wasn't thinking about it, I'm used to having the bottles I'd set aside for the warmth, wasn't thinking about wasting that, but I don't have those now - it's too cold to drink an entire bottle now and I'm not wasting the fresh water...
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[Obvious statement is obvious, but Stephen's more perturbed by something else, here.]
Wait, wait, bottles? You're not...tell me you're not peeing in bottles.
I'm laughing this is the dumbest thing to argue about
[Seriously, he never understood why it's such a problem, it's not like he's drinking from those bottles aside from their very first use...]
Enoch you weirdo
he is not saying no to a naturally-recurring source of warmth okay (but he is a weirdo)
smh
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I have more layers to hide my hands under now, but it still feels like I'm wasting something I could be using to help.
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[Honestly he's just stubbornly clinging to a habit that had been helpful when he'd had little else to work with. Human brains in survival mode can get weird.]
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You're not going to...I mean, you said you didn't have any spare bottles. Maybe...don't this time?
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[It has not yet occurred to him he is having this discussion in public, unfortunately for any lurkers who didn't want to hear all this.]
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[This is actually the least harm it's actually done, but whatever.]
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