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Enoch ([personal profile] warriorscribe) wrote in [community profile] snowblindrpg2017-07-07 03:14 pm

[network] @Enoch; video; Day 257 [open] [cw: death talk, probably; suicidal ideation]

[The video opens on a plastic shopping bag, full to straining with rations and bottles of water, an entire week's worth crammed into one little bag, swaying on his arm as he walks. He sounds...well, scared. He's trying to play it off as angry, but it isn't working.]

Well, I suppose I ought to thank you for not leaving me with nothing...

[And the camera comes back up to his face, half-covered in his pastel yellow blanket-scarf and shadowed by the hoods of his cloak and raincoat. His eyes, at least, are frightened and pained.]

But really, Eve, must you use those machines to control my actions? It's entirely too much like being possessed and you surely know I have been. [A sigh, heavy and wavering.] Please, please, if you're going to deny me this, please tell me you revived Beckett, too.

Beckett... [his voice goes soft and he slows, coming to a stop for a few seconds in the snow. His head hangs and for a moment his face is entirely obscured from view. He leans on a building - the house with hot water - but does not go in.] ...Please don't be gone forever. Please let us meet again. I don't want it to be the same as it was with Clayton, I want to see you again!

I'm sorry, I couldn't save you. I tried, I tried, but I couldn't-... [his voice breaks and he keeps moving. He's heading for the school, but that won't be visible for some time yet. For now, the surroundings become the empty field around it.]

Brian, I'm sorry. Angel, Rhys, you too, forgive me. You love him too and I failed him. [His voice hitches again, but he's exerting himself too much to actually stop and cry.]

Right, I'm-...recording for everyone, I-... I'm sorry, I'm alive. I can't seem to control what I say or write but I'm alive. And I don't know yet that it's worth it that I am.

[That last bit, under his breath, might have been lost on the wind to those not paying close attention. He continues his walk towards the school, only silent in the effort of moving forward. It is occasionally punctuated by complaints about the cold and the way the plastic bag's handles bite into his arm even through his coat's sleeve, when he pauses for even a moment.]

((ooc: Because Enoch lacks any sort of communication filter, he may comment on text posts running concurrently with audio/video posts, including inbox and filtered posts. Let me know if you do NOT want him bringing up any other threads or commenting on yours in others!))
thewarningafter: (griefbeard | unease | sounds fake)

[personal profile] thewarningafter 2017-07-16 04:48 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't know. It's safe to assume that not everything we see is strictly real; maybe the cloak was the only part of it our brains were being permitted to interpret. I'd wonder if it was real at all, but it was definitely physically present.
thewarningafter: (griefbeard | unease | here to there)

[personal profile] thewarningafter 2017-07-17 06:24 pm (UTC)(link)
So it's not a case of our nanomachines influencing the tablet feed.

[He mulls that over.]

When we see the thing in the morgue -- when idiots use it to commit suicide and record the process -- Winter implied that what we all see in the videos is a result of how the person dying interpreted what they saw. The nanomachines operate on the same frequencies as the tablets and interfere with the feed. If anything, it's weirder that we all saw the same thing without being connected by video. It implies that it was real, on some level.
thewarningafter: (goatee | snark | tired deadpan honesty)

[personal profile] thewarningafter 2017-07-21 03:09 am (UTC)(link)
Not necessarily. If the nanomachines were redirected to kill us from within, but we perceived it as something else attacking us, the thing wouldn't be any more real no matter how dead we ended up.
thewarningafter: (griefbeard | unease | teacup)

oh boy!

[personal profile] thewarningafter 2017-07-26 01:09 am (UTC)(link)
Now you're just getting into semantics; what kills you is real but if you perceive it differently that's not --

Where are you?
thewarningafter: (griefbeard | unease | staying calm)

[personal profile] thewarningafter 2017-07-27 12:13 pm (UTC)(link)
You're a guy, aren't you? Just point it downwind and do it outside. Uh..quickly, it's pretty cold out.

[Obvious statement is obvious, but Stephen's more perturbed by something else, here.]

Wait, wait, bottles? You're not...tell me you're not peeing in bottles.
thewarningafter: (goatee | snark | gesture | no really)

Enoch you weirdo

[personal profile] thewarningafter 2017-07-30 07:20 am (UTC)(link)
I mean, I guess it's sterile -- or if it's not sterile, you've got bigger problems than being the creepy hobo who cuddles up with bottles of his own urine. Not that it'd be any better if it was someone else's urine, so I guess I should just be glad that's not under discussion. Do you want to spill it all over your cloak? Because that's going to happen one of these days.
thewarningafter: (griefbeard | unease | over shoulder)

smh

[personal profile] thewarningafter 2017-07-30 03:40 pm (UTC)(link)
...It's that good of a hand warmer?
thewarningafter: (griefbeard | neutral | such scruff)

[personal profile] thewarningafter 2017-08-01 08:39 pm (UTC)(link)
I've been using kitchen gloves and a wrist brace, but the wrist brace is more to stabilize the joint when I'm trying to sleep and try to keep off the worst of the pain in the mornings. How long would you say it stays warm?
thewarningafter: (griefbeard | unease | staying calm)

[personal profile] thewarningafter 2017-08-02 09:00 pm (UTC)(link)
That's not nothing...but you're carrying around bottles for urine. It's weird. You're being weird.
thewarningafter: (griefbeard | neutral | such scruff)

[personal profile] thewarningafter 2017-08-09 08:14 pm (UTC)(link)
I get that. That part's kind of obvious, actually.

You're not going to...I mean, you said you didn't have any spare bottles. Maybe...don't this time?
thewarningafter: (griefbeard | manpain | tablet)

[personal profile] thewarningafter 2017-08-14 04:36 pm (UTC)(link)
It doesn't matter, it's just that you came on the network and told me all about how you pee in bottles and stick them in your clothes. Honestly, the part where you told me is probably the weirdest part. I get that you're having the same problem I am, but by extension you've got to get that I'm having the same problem you are. You're just going to get my opinion whether either of us wants it or not.
thewarningafter: (griefbeard | unease | that tea)

[personal profile] thewarningafter 2017-08-15 04:18 am (UTC)(link)
I'd say it's not as bad as being unable to recognize anyone for a week -- twice -- but I've already proven that wrong.

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